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     She knew the moment that her son was born he was
     so special. There were many who believed him to be
     defective because Bumi wasn’t an airbender as his father
     — but his parents never believed so. He had the intelligence
     and courage that made his mother at times envious. There
    were so many aspects of his father and uncle that he
     inherited, including his need to prove himself. Redemption
     was what her son desired and she couldn’t understand
     why Bumi felt it was something that he needed. She
     was weary of the gamble he had now decided to take —
     knowing the wrong decision could take his life.

          She wasn’t expecting the princess to become so upset
          and yet her reaction was one that brought some comfort.
          She wasn’t alone in her devastation — she too shared the
          pain his mother felt. Katara was too willing to embrace her —
          wrapping her arms as tightly as she could around Noriko.
          Bring comfort to others was something she had always
          done, but now it was something the waterbender needed
          for herself.

     Despite the unraveling of their relationship, Katara knew
     how much Bumi loved Noriko, understanding his need to leave
     with only a letter. Another tinge of guilt began to consume her —
     knowing she was the reason for his quiet departure and the
     sorrow that Noriko now felt. “Because he knew I wouldn’t
     let him go—”

               It was my fault my son didn’t
               want to say good bye.

         She wasn’t sure she would ever come to peace with her
          son’s decisions, or even her brother’s involvement in them.
          Despite how drained she was, the waterbender managed
          to smile in spite of the tears that were threatening to stained
          her cheeks once more.

               “Please don’t be sorry for me — just
                hope that he will come home again.”

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     Home again. She was certain the young man would come
     home again, for his mission to please was too strong to
     stifle. He’d come home again, and in her worst fears, a
     different man; hardened and serious and unrecognizable.
     Or… untouched. Maybe he’d return just how he’d left.
     Somehow that idea hurt just a bit more, knowing he would
     still be a stranger to her after what had come between
     them. She released one last shuddering breath before
     she stepped back, stood tall, and dried her eyes.

            “ I will.
                 …Maybe it’s for the best.”

     She recalled a time, too long ago, when their fights had
     been meaningless; just ways of flirting, of showing off.
     She would pull out a throwing knife, and he would look
     terrified until she cracked a warm smile. She wondered
     now if those nights had been practice for future
     quarrels, and whether or not he felt like he won that
     time he made her cry, and she hated to think of him that
     way because she knew it wasn’t true, and that was
     her sick mind twisting up a good person, and oh, how
     jumbled one’s thoughts become when the heart doesn’t
     know how to feel…

                   —- If only she could prove her heart wrong.
                 It was truly unfortunate that she would never
                 have the chance to move on before he had.

                              And he’d moved on so quickly…

     “ He’s serving for a good cause, isn’t he? That’s all that matters.”


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